Au Pair Diaries//Being Sick and Not Knowing It


If you have been following me on social media, you would know that I was in the hospital for a total of 6 days. This post in not a post to feel sorry for me, or me looking for attention. No it is an awareness post. A post that hopefully will help someone out there and touch them. 

I am 24 years old, which means that; I should be living my life, be in top shape, always face the world with a big smile and NOT END UP IN HOSPITAL! Or so I thought. 

As I am writing this post, I am slowly, but surely, coming to terms that it happened to me. That I am not made of sugar, spice and everything nice. That at the end I am not perfect and that it was about time for me to go through this. My host dad said: "You are young, they can fix it". Which is true, but terrifying, it was not part of MY plan. But with everything that happened; I am reminded that God's plan is bigger then my plan and that I serve a Mighty God.

8th November 2017, the day I would love to forget but can't. During that day I was not feeling well and the evening I though: "I could sleep it off". But I couldn't. When I opened my bedroom door; I collapsed and started throwing up blood, because this time I could not sleep it off! It was time to face it. I was rushed to the ER and that is where MY world came to a stand still and started crumbling down. My blood count was 4.5, my iron was low, my esophagus was more narrow then I could've ever imagined and there was a possibility that I had internal bleeding.

What Was Wrong?

Upon arrival test were run and it was determined that I had a blood count of 4.5 WTF right? Because an average woman has a count of 12 so immediately I received a blood transfusion. 3 pints of blood that evening. Then they ran a stool test (eeuw) and they found traces of blood. Which meant I had internal bleeding. (As I heard all this, tears were running down my cheeks). But for them to determine if I really had internal bleeding they had to scope me. News flash: Gu-wee has a narrow throat (which I have been mentioning every time. Since I eat super slow) So they were unable to get the scope down my throat. Best part is they even tried the pediatric scope and still was unable to go down. But it had to be done so that I could know what is going on. On top of all this I am anemic and iron deficient. I received an iron drip that would be good for the next 6 months. 

Next Step

Due to Mission Hospital being unable to scope me, I had to go to UC Irvine Hospital. Where I spent 5 days in the hospital to see the GI, because I didn't want to know what was wrong but needed to know. Let me just say those 5 days were not fun. As it was the weekend of Vetrans day, I was in the ER for 6 hours before getting a room. Then I spent the whole Saturday waiting for the GI, where he never showed up. Finally he came on Sunday and I was supposed to do te procedure on Monday. At 18:00pm, Monday evening, I was told that they couldn't do it. It had to be Tuesday. I was not happy as I didn't want to spend another night in THAT hospital! Tuesday came it was done (after some words were exchanged). It was then determined that I had ulcers around my intestines and that it was the cause for my internal bleeding. 

Recovering and Medication

At this very moment, more then a week later I am discharged but my struggles are not over yet. I need to get my prescription for my internal bleeding but I am unable to afford it because it's $400+. In Au Pair language that is a big NO NO because I don't even make that much in a week (its okay, you can pick up your jaw). But I need it the medication to get better. And I have been out of the hospital for 5 days and still don't have my medication. The joys of being an Au Poor. My medical aid doesn't cover it so what now?

I don't know what I am going to do, but this I know is that I need it to get better and start living the life God wants me to live. Because guess what? God is not done with me. 

Health is a crown that the healthy wear, but only the sick can see it



  1. Oh I am so sorry to hear about what happened to you..I wish you a speed recovery and I hope you’ll find a way to get your medicine..
    Do take better care of your health dear, it is the most precious thing we can try to Google some of the home remedies for your stomach ulcers, but consult with your physician before taking might not cure it but it can ease your discomfort..
    God bless you

  2. Oh my goodness. That’s so very scary and I know so painful. Wishing you all the best and a very large dose of health and happiness for 2018!

  3. So sorry about this! I hope you get financial assistance and recover quick, but above all I pray God heals you miraculously. Please take care!

  4. I am glad that you are feeling better and good for you on your journey I have always wanted to be one when I was younger, all the best.

  5. I am so sorry this is happening. Being ill is never fun and can be so frustrating. Especially when you're young. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers hun.

  6. Sorry to hear about that. What a compelling story. Thank you for being transparent. Writing about it is therapeutic. Keep us posted.

  7. As humans, we don't know what we have until we no longer have our health. Much love to you as you regain yours.

  8. Wow, that is terrible! I'm glad you were able to get out of the hospital. I hope you keep feeling better and take care of yourself.

  9. Wishing you recover and heal soon . God will surely show you a way to get healthy again . Keep the faith.